I’m going to share something really personal today.
It’s not easy to share this, but it’s important. I want to talk about why I thought I didn’t deserve love – and how my entire life changed when I realized I did.
I’ll warn you right now – it’s pretty heavy stuff.
Take care of yourself as you read it.
If there’s anything that’s too painful to read, you can always take a break.
But I believe it’s important to share, because so many women don’t believe they’re worthy of love – and that affects the entire world.
(Oh! And if you haven’t watched the video training I’ve been sharing with my readers- watch it now here before it expires!)
My love story starts before I was even born – all the way back in 1984.
My mom had a hard pregnancy.
I’m talking, really, really hard.
I’m a twin, you see.
And my mom’s doctor told her that we were too small, too unhealthy to survive.
He told her not to get too attached because chances were really high that we would die.
She took those words to heart.
And when we were born premature, she cared for us – but she was always afraid to love us.
Always afraid we’d die, just like the doctor said.
That fear – it prevented her really ever loving us deeply (for fear we wouldn’t survive).
That fear kept her from really loving me.
She had built a wall around her heart to protect herself and that wall meant that she wasn’t able to share her love, her light, her joy.
From birth until the age of 26, my mother never told me she loved me.
Not because she didn’t – but because she just couldn’t say it, for fear of what would happen.
This destroyed me.
It made me feel like I was literally in hell – I was so scared that if I was to meet someone and feel happy, I would lose that happiness. It couldn’t possibly last.
That if I found love, it would disappear.
That I would probably never even find love, because my own mother couldn’t tell me she loved me, and therefore who else ever could?
I lived my life like I was in hell.
I would binge drink to the point of blacking out.
I had stomach issues.
I was wasting my potential.
Until one day, I decided I couldn’t do that anymore.
I went to a bookstore and found books on spiritual healing.
As obsessed as I was before with destroying my life, I became that obsessed with saving it.
I dedicated myself to personal development.
I found self love within.
Real, deep, self love.
And as a result of learning to love myself like that…
Eventually, I found a deep, committed partnership.
It wasn’t all sunshine and roses.
I went through some deep shit to get there – I was with an abusive narcissist for awhile before I escaped.
But eventually I emerged on the other side and found a relationship for myself that is real, and beautiful, and strong.
That nurtures and shows and reflects love – it doesn’t hide it away.
I realized that this knowledge I had gained, this hell I had walked through – it was all for a reason.
It was so that I could share what I learned with others.
So I could teach other women what I had to figure out in the hardest way.
So I could help other women walk through the fire and emerge on the other side, whole and unscathed.
So I could share what I learned about finding the man of your dreams (and how it all starts with you).
I want you to know that I know exactly how it feels to hate yourself.
To be stuck attracting the wrong man, time after time.
And I want you to know that it’s totally possible to change that behavior.
It starts by watching my life-changing Raining Quality Men workshop.
You can do so right now by clicking this button.
The training expires in a few days, so set aside some time and watch it now.
I created it with you in mind – wanting to share my energy and all I have learned about attracting your dream man.
I’d love to hear from you – what’s been your biggest struggle in finding a man?
In achieving self-acceptance?
Do parts of my story echo your own?
Hit replay and tell me.
But don’t forget to watch this training before it goes POOF in the next few days!
Sending you light and love,
Author: Nicole Moore
Nicole Moore is a love coach who helps, powerful, influential women find their ideal partner. Using her signature Love Works Method, she’s helped thousands of women find lasting love fast.
Nicole started her company while she was in a relationship she thought would lead to marriage. Instead it resulted in emotional abuse and her boyfriend cheating on her. Suddenly single as a life coach, Nicole had to start following her own advice and take every tip she’d ever taught a client – and it worked. She found her dream man exactly one year after following her program and is now happily married with a beautiful son living in Encinitas, CA.
Nicole has three life coaching certifications, including certification from New York University. She’s been featured in Money Magazine, Forbes, and Greatist.com.